Still Trying
I have lost a good amount of weight since Addison was born, but I still have about 20 pounds to lose to be back to my pre-pregnancy weight. It’s been hard to workout and eat well with the baby and school and such, but it’s starting to get easier to juggle things.
Before getting pregnant everyone called me the “healthy one” and would call me for recipes and advice on how to eat healthy or exercise. Now I eat so bad not even I can believe it. I eat fast food and sweets almost all day. I actually think the way I eat goes a bit deeper than just “not having time”. I think it has more to do with the post-partum depression and just not being able to shake the eating habits I got into.
It’s not just the eating habits though…it’s the way I’ve been neglecting myself too. I guess I’m just kind of in a funk that I’m not sure how to get out of. My hair is gross, my eyebrows are just an eyebrow, my legs are hairier than my husband’s and I wear my pajama’s until I have to go to school in the evening. I don’t have any nice clothes anymore. They have rips and holes and baby stains. And when we have extra money so I can do things for myself, I swear that Addison needs things more than I do and I buy unnecessary things for her. I think that’s so I don’t have to go and try clothes on or that I think I’d feel obligated to look good everyday.
Has anyone else dealt with this post pregnancy? How did you get yourself out of the funk?
